35 Weeks

It is really hard to believe that this pregnancy is almost over. In some ways it has gone by fast and other not so much. But this is our last baby and it seems kind of crazy. But we feel our family is complete. I am looking forward to all the upcoming stages in life with the kids. I thought I would be really sad to know we were complete. But I guess that I don't means we really are. I am so excited to meet this sweet spirit coming to our home. All my children are so unique. I loved all the conference talks about teaching our children in the home. It gave me the hope that we can raise righteous children in these crazy last days. Some days I want to completely pull my hair out, but it is all worth it. And listening to conference gave me the reassurance that the path I am on is the right one despite what the world says. Being blesses with children is a miracle in itself. I have 5 weeks to go and Jeremy is really praying that his mother will be here to see the baby. I know in my heart even if she is not here she will still be blessed to see that grandchild. The temple dedication is around the corner. So many things we want to share with her. But we both know it is in the Lords hands. So on one hand I am ready for the baby to come. But then it will probably mean we have lost Linda. But I think the birth of a baby will help heal our hearts. Something so sweet coming right from our Father in Heaven.

This is a picture taken at night by one of my cousins. I took it from his facebook! Thanks Dusty for sharing! I love to see the Temple. I can't wait to take our children through it for the open house. We are so blessed to live 5 minutes away. The kids have really enjoyed watching it be built. An experience we will probably never have again.

Life

{General Conference}

This was such a wonderful weekend for me. Before conference started I wrote down things I was struggling with and worrying about. It felt like each talk was just for me. I heard the council, comfort, and exact plans to better myself and my family. I love my DVR. It made watching it with interruptions so easy. It took me 4 hours to get through the Saturday afternoon session. But being able to pause it and keep going makes such a difference! I can't wait till it comes out in print.

{Easter}

Easter was pretty different this year. We didn't do the big Easter dinner, and not having church made it seem different too. The kids did dye eggs Saturday and have a hunt. Sunday Jeremy's mom wanted everyone to come to her house for sandwiches and potato salad. It was nice to be with her and feel of her sweet spirit. This was very bittersweet for me.

{Life}

Life for us has changed in many ways. For about the last month I am finding out to a little extent what it feels like to be a single parent. How grateful I am for a husband! To all single mothers out there, I am not sure how you do it. But you are some of the strongest women I know. Jeremy spends early mornings and evenings at his parents being with his mother. This is something that has really brought us a lot closer. This experience has been one of the hardest things we have really gone through. I lost both my grandparents to cancer, but they were older. I feel like I am loosing a mother also. She has always loved me just like a daughter. She has been not only like a mother to me but a dear friend. I have had a hard time wanting to blog lately. My emotions are very tender. But I do have to say, this has really changed my perspective on life and family. All the petty things that once seemed a big deal are no longer even an issue. Life is so fragile. Enjoy each day. Tell your family how much you love them. How grateful I am for the knowledge of the Plan of Salvation and for my temple covenants. In the last month I went from my temple covenants being something I knew to be true but that mostly seemed the blessings would come in the future, to now they are what keeps me going each day. How blessed we are to have the Holy Ghost in our lives as a comforter. How blessed we are that our families can be forever!